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Kay guys, it's that time of the year.

I have completely removed everyone from my friends list. Everyone. No exceptions. Think of this as a reverse friend's cut.

COMMENT HERE OR PM ME TO BE ADDED BACK. All comments are screened.

NOTE THAT I WILL NOT BE OFFENDED IN THE SLIGHEST if you want to part ways here. If we don't talk, you find my entries boring, or whatever, now's the time to leave, and I'll have no hard feelings.

ALSO NOTE THAT I reserve the right to talk to you about it. Like, if we don't talk anymore, I might say so. Just keep that in mind.

So yeah.

and while we're here:

Feel free to use this as the time to say anything you'd like to me, anon or logged in. All comments are screened, IP logging is off, anon is on, etc.

so let's do this.

kay since I totally failed at gift giving this year because of life

IF YOU WANT

ICONS

OR COLORED SHIT

OR FANFICS

OR ANYTHING

REQUEST IT HERE AND I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN

kgo

THIS IS A POST

that will eventually be a muse list

so yeah

OPEN RP SPAM POST

Plot prompts:

✘ Your character has someone whispering things in their head. It can be to kill people, that they're going to die, that french fries are the best things ever, whatever you want. Go nuts.

✘ Your character is susceptible to breaking out into monologues. It could be a normally quiet character, and suddenly out of nowhere they're saying essays every time they answer something.

✘ Your character walks into open rp land with a sign on their back. It can say "kick me", or "I need a hug", or have a picture of them from their past, or even just have a written embarrassing secret on it.

OBVIOUSLY NONE OF THESE ARE MANDATORY. They were just sitting in my head and I thought they would be cool random ideas to add into the mix of a random rp spam post. Comment. Mingle. GO NUTS.

kamuichaaan (2:39:06 AM): I'll never ever forgive you
kamuichaaan (2:39:10 AM): and will guilt trip you about this
kamuichaaan (2:39:13 AM): until the end of time
kamuichaaan (2:39:14 AM): :|
Midgard Slots (2:39:38 AM): I will erect a stoicly uncaring facade. n__n
kamuichaaan (2:39:51 AM): I see through your n_ning :<
Midgard Slots (2:40:00 AM): and then i may knock over buildings
kamuichaaan (2:40:13 AM): yes well I might go into an angst coma
Midgard Slots (2:40:34 AM): Will have to get an even-more-broken-than-you woobie to drag you back out
kamuichaaan (2:40:47 AM): ;o;
kamuichaaan (2:40:55 AM): or kill my precious people
Midgard Slots (2:41:52 AM): Maybe, eventually.
Midgard Slots (2:42:09 AM): So far I've really only killed strangers, my sister, and one person on my side.
kamuichaaan (2:42:43 AM): so far I've killed
kamuichaaan (2:42:47 AM): [...............]
kamuichaaan (2:42:55 AM): [cricket]
Midgard Slots (2:43:45 AM): You'll have to kill someone eventually.
kamuichaaan (2:43:50 AM): No.
kamuichaaan (2:43:51 AM): :|
Midgard Slots (2:44:13 AM): If you don't then more people will die.
kamuichaaan (2:44:25 AM): fuck my life
Midgard Slots (2:44:33 AM): n_n
kamuichaaan (2:44:55 AM): D:< ;A;
kamuichaaan (2:45:04 AM): /t-tries to hurt
Midgard Slots (2:45:16 AM): *mocks your inability to land a killing blow.*
kamuichaaan (2:45:22 AM): /HURTS
kamuichaaan (2:45:26 AM): /B|
Midgard Slots (2:45:27 AM): *BLEEDS*
kamuichaaan (2:45:28 AM): --
kamuichaaan (2:45:31 AM): ..................
kamuichaaan (2:45:34 AM): ;A;
Midgard Slots (2:45:45 AM): n__n Care to try again?
kamuichaaan (2:46:29 AM): /sobs
Midgard Slots (2:46:56 AM): *abruptly shatters your ribs*
Midgard Slots (2:46:58 AM): --WAIT.
Midgard Slots (2:47:12 AM): I also killed some guy that's not cool enough to be a Dragon.
kamuichaaan (2:47:12 AM): ..../scream
Midgard Slots (2:47:17 AM): *resumes shattering*
kamuichaaan (2:47:23 AM): /breaks
Midgard Slots (2:47:31 AM): *badtouches* n__n
kamuichaaan (2:47:37 AM): ;_;

"Why shouldn't I trust a human?"

It was a simple, innocent question, and one he never thought to ask until then. Perhaps he was always distracted by the fact that his mother's gentle fingers always combed through his hair, or held him close, or wagged in front of his face when he did something wrong. Perhaps he was afraid to know the answer. Perhaps it was because he couldn't imagine the remote possibility of anyone having a reason, even a trivial one, to think of all the alleged things that humans thought of vampires. Monsters. Creatures of the night. Sadistic blood sucking creatures. None of it registered when he tried to compare it to mother. Nor did his mother ever say anything against humans to him herself.

No, the only warning mother gave him was to never trust a human. Each time, her compassionate tone turned a bit more nostalgic, a bit noticeably melancholy, And yet all that Kamui could pinpoint that something was wrong.

Yet, he could only listen to his mother's instructions and be wary of humans. It was something that he knew shouldn't be discussed. Still, each time Subaru went to read, each time they had to be separated for whatever reason, Kamui came to her with a plethora of questions about anything and everything, from why is the sky blue to what is magic to what the world is like outside of their home. And mother always answered them. No matter how childish or ridiculous they were, she never laughed or ridiculed him for asking these questions, she only answered him. So why not this one?

After a bit of a surprised pause, her soft smile returns.

"What do you think of humans, Kamui?"

The question caught him off guard. How was he meant to answer it? He never really met a human before, aside from the frequent hunting trips the group occasionally took him on.

"They're selfish. They only think of themselves, especially when it comes to us. They're allowed to kill to feed, but if we even try to feed, kill them or not, they suddenly hate us. ...They call us monsters."

"And most of them will believe that." She was smiling, but for the first time, Kamui could finally notice the distinct sadness in her expression. But mother couldn't possibly be sad. Mother was never sad. ...At least not in front of him. Upset, calm, happy, yes, but never sad.

"You never told me what you think, Kamui," she continued. "You've repeated what the others have said."

"But that's the truth, isn't it?"

"I believe you can find your own truth."

Silence. If he was supposed to respond to that, he didn't know how. Before he could think, the tips of his mother's fingers traced the shape of his face, and she rested her hands on his cheeks.

"You don't need to find your answer yet."

"But..."

"It's a difficult question, even for those who have seen humans before." Her smile faltered, and Kamui continued to deny the acceptance that his mother was truly sad.

She must have noticed his fretting, because soon the hands that were holding his cheeks released him in favor of pulling him into a hug. Her warm, gentle hands. They were one of his favorite things in the world. Kamui blinked before promptly pouting; still, he hugged her back, his small arms not quite managing to completely wrap around her.

"Your question is something I can't tell you."

"You can't?"

"I'm afraid not, but I'm sure you'll find your answer. Because you are Kamui."

Because you are Kamui. He never understood why his mother made it out to seem like he was special. She certainly loved both him and Subaru the same, but the reasoning behind the phrase hardly made sense to him. What did it make a difference if he were Kamui, or Subaru, or Tooru or anyone else? It didn't make sense.

Still, his fingers curled around the fabric of his mother's clothing as he nodded, curling up on her lap and beginning to shut his eyes.

RP SPAM MEME

because I wanted to do it before and I'm just that bored. Go nuts?

KAY NEW POLL BECAUSE A. I need to narrow it down and B. I've just enabled/have been enabled into playing the Touya to killiana's Yukito/Yue and the old page wouldn't let me add a new poll

I know I suck. I know.

Poll #1414116
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 8

Edited Poll: Please pick one (Kiseki)

Please pick one (Discedo)

YAY FINALS ARE WAIVED

YAY

THANK YOU FUCKING GOD I HAVEN'T BEEN IN SCHOOL FOR THREE MONTHS CHRIST

YAY.

and now for:

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me, something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about, or something you've always been curious about but have never asked, or something completely silly that you'd like me to answer for kicks. No limits on the range of questions, either: ask me anything you want to know about, whether it's a fannish opinion or a question about a fic of mine or trivia about my real life or my thoughts on events in the offline world.

Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

Anon is on.

Dear every fucking person in existence.

LET IT GO.

So I'm ten minutes from removing anyone and everyone who I'm not 100% sure I can trust from my flist until I found out who exactly decided it was a good idea to spread the word about something I thought I could confine to my flist.

Yeah, brb, doing that. If you're removed, I still love you as a friend, but I really don't feel comfortable with people reading shit and spreading it around. Nothing personal. Sorry, but I can't trust anyone anymore.